Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Time to suit up ladies!! Bathing suit that is =/

I went to the beach this past weekend wearing jeans. Yes, I said jeans. I wasn't planning on going in the water since it would have been freezing cold but still, who wears jeans to the beach? This got me thinking that pretty soon I'll have to make the dreaded trip to several stores trying to find a suit that looks half way decent and doesn't make me look like I'm wearing a tube around my waist saying "Does this make me look fat?"

This of course made me think. *AM* I ready for "bathing suit season"? Uuumm that would be a big giant HELL NO! I hate the thought of having to find something to stuff myself into that actually holds my tummy in and my boobs up! This whole experience makes me want to puke O.o

I don't want to have to flaunt around my less than smooth thighs to a bunch of strangers at the beach or pool! Now, I'm sure not all eyes are on me but for whatever reason I think they are. I always promote being confident no matter what size you are. To love yourself and your body regardless of your size.  It's just, well, bathing suits take that confidence to a whole other level of HOLY FUCK I need to do something quick!! I'm not sure there is a Miracle Suit that can work the miracles I need. If I find one I will be sure to let you know.

At least one good thing is a lot of vintage suits are back in style. This makes me happy...very, very happy. You see the vintage suits cover a LOT more AND they actually compliment my curves. As I look through  pictures I wonder if these women ever worried so much about how they looked?

Should it really be that big of deal? My answer is YES! I stress "my answer" which doesn't mean I think everyone else has to feel the same way. For me, when it comes to showing that much skin in broad daylight I want to at least pretend like I tried to make something work! So where does this leave me now? Basically it leaves me realizing that if I care enough about my appearance in a bathing suit then I damn well better start do something about it now. Summer is only a couple months away and it's already heating up. I don't want to be tortured by the thought of standing in a dressing room with that hidious lighting wanting to run to the nearest Weight Watchers. The fact of the matter is I WILL have to buy a suit and I WILL have to wear it in public. Even though I don't think I'll ever be fully impressed with any suit I try on, I'm going to do my best to look for something that I at least feel comfortable in. I'll keep you all posted on my progress!